hi im libby.

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i broke up with ty, btw

yesterday was funnn!
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it was roberts first night off probation so we all hung out at jakes house and it was funnn (:

we took a drive and the car was packeeed; robert and jake in the front, bobby, kendra, teesha, and myself in back.

later we took a walk to the gas station near jakes house and bought snacks (jake lives in a small town so it was the closest place to get food) but on the way there we heard this weird growling noise and saw something in the bushes so we got freaked out.

uhm today i woke up and hung out at jakes until about 4 and then i came homeeeee.


lolz my dads like "how was your vacation?"

fuckkkkkkk okay.
this is a blog. so im going to complain and rant.
since no one wants to hear this person to person.

i'm hung over right now. i walked home from roberts at about 7 am. i couldnt find my pants because they were outside on a bench that's in his drive way so i yoinked a pair of his shorts. hope he doesnt mind.
anyways i walked home (it was beautiful outside) and took a bath (that felt like heaven) because i guess we went swimming or something earlier, but i had tons of sand in my hair. i don't remember swimming but i remember taking this huge fall and the scratches on my ankles, hips, back, and finger show it. robert and i had some very tasty blue pucker that at this moment reminds me of just how bad alcohol sounds right now.
fuck.

wondering whether jake likes me or not is driving me insane. my relationship with tyler is failing i think. maybe he doesnt think so. we had a small conversation over the period of a few hours and now i feel horrible.

havent seen tyler in week or more? does not spending enough time together provide basis for a break up?
wondering because every time we hang out its after not seeing each other for at least 3 + days so its kind of awkward.

when i was hanging out with kent yesterday down town he said "since im an anarchist i recognize how everything works... in order to create something you have to destroy something." then he went off to tell me how in going out with jake i will be in essence 'destroying' my relationship with tyler. which is true. wise wise words from a true anarchist. :/

i spent hours down town yesterday doing almost nothing. just walking around with friends. we hung out at subway and we had fun playing with a condom filled up with breath. the lady didnt even yell at us.

my arms are a little tan.





andddd ive lost all motivation to write.

If I could have dinner with anyone, I would undoubtedly have dinner with Raoul Duke. We would eat at some upscale restaurant in Las Vegas (our consumption would not be limited to food) only to leave at the end of the night without paying, telling the server to put it on our 'tab'. Meanwhile the valet would be driving up to the door with our Red Shark.

The end.

so i got like no comments on that last post. maybe you guys aren't in to talking about your personal lives o-o

uhh whatever. i dont feel good.

im not going to drink for a while.



in other newwwwwws i was thinking about taking some pictures of my room but its really small.
so there wouldnt be too much to it haha

but still o:

okay, so, a confession :/

this is the weirdest thing I've ever done. it's so out of character.
feel free to judge me harshly *lolsarcasm*

last night i went out around 12 with my friends robert and jake and some douchebag named bobby. at around 1 we went and picked up roberts friend meredith who ran away from home or something retarded and she brought us some alcohol. she had some cherry pucker (which was decent), vodka, and some nasty labatt blue light beer.

so we were all drinking at roberts house, it was extremely fun and tasty because we had some really good juice that was like orange mango :}
i didnt drink too much vodka because its nasty but i had a lot of pucker and beer. it was funny because me and jake took the rest of the beers and went for a walk and i showed him the dock i like to go to sometimes with friends. so we were both really drunk and happy and stuff

**SO THERES SO 'SEXUAL' CONTENT IN THIS LOLOL**
and then we started making weird noises, like with our mouths, getting really close. and finally after about 30 minutes of tension we kissed. and that led to tons of making out and what not. and then to my surprise skgjslkjgslkj.

then we walked back to roberts house and slept in a bed with bobby who is annoying as FUCK and were stilllll making out. we talked about it and decided it was because we were both really drunk. i made it clear that there was no love involved and we stopped and just went to sleep and woke up later to bobby farting grossly :[

i feel guilty and weird. but its about time i did something dishonest. it was bound to happen at some point. the weird thing is is that we both had no idea that we found each other attractive. i thought he wasn't interested in me in the least so i was thinking he was just a really happy person with everyone. and then he told me that he liked me and that i was so funny and awesome and blabhbalhblabhlbah.
i just told him i thought he was hot.

soooooooo i hope i get to see tyler today. i dont plan on telling him yet.
i shouldnt have done this to him. he really really doesnt deserve this.

edit** hi some pictures of jake :I they really arent current. he has shorter blondish hair. :I

its the fourth of july, yo.
my day went as such; woke up, went on the computer, played pokemon puzzle league, ate dinner, went to see 'wanted', watched a little bit of fireworks, and returned home.

how was your fourth?